I was in Alex's cross hairs all day today...first it was the screwing up of the school supplies in the wrong bag, then I couldnt microwave her lunch right apparently. Finally she called me "inept" because I bought her school shirts a size bigger than normal so she'd grow into them over the course of the year. Thankfully Matt got home around 330 pm and then he was in her cross hairs the rest of the day...
Maybe I am trying too hard with the girls. Maybe I am striving for perfection that cannot be obtained. They have very few responsibilities around here: do their own laundry, unload the dishwasher and homework. Other than that, they can skate. Maybe thats the problem...Matt and I have done too much for them...I fear turning into my mother by making them do more things around here and while I am not here to be their friend, I just want them to like me at the same point in time. I want them to be the ones to tell their friends "Yeah, my mom is pretty cool...for an old lady!" I dont know anymore...
Tomorrow they start school. Finally, back to a routine that we can deal with!!!! I have a ton of errands to run tomorrow so that 6 hours that they're in school is going to fly...I have to get to the library to get some books to keep me from going insane and to keep my mind off of the Lupron therapy tomorrow afternoon as well!
Anyway, I am exhausted. I finished another afghan tonight and started another one right away...i cant seem to sit still!!
Night world...
Sunday, July 10, 2011
ugh
So I messed up the girls' school bags by putting the wrong stuff in the wrong bag. I am glad that they discovered it today instead of tomorrow when they got to school but it came at a price for me! Was called everything BUT my name! So, I calmly told them that if they felt they could do a better job then they could redo their own bags. And they did. Not my problem anymore! I cant believe though that they are going to be 4th and 5th graders already! Where did my babies go?! Alex is being tested to possibly advance to 5th grade as well. This kid is learning mandarin chinese in her spare time! I mean seriously?! Every bit like her Aunt Becky though who used to read the encyclopedia for fun! You remember that 26 volume thing that used to weigh a ton before Al Gore invented the Internet so we didnt have to use those smelly things ever again?
On cruise control the rest of the day here. Matt started back to that God Awful Sunday-Thursday shift but still on days so he wont be home until around 330 pm...just the girls and I chilling...and watching HGTV all day! =)
On cruise control the rest of the day here. Matt started back to that God Awful Sunday-Thursday shift but still on days so he wont be home until around 330 pm...just the girls and I chilling...and watching HGTV all day! =)
Saturday, July 9, 2011
exhaustion
So, I think I have learned my lesson about reading creepy books before bed. FINALLY fell off around 330 am this morning, only to be woke up by Tigger staring at me around 730 am. Way too creepy to wake up and look down and see a miserable ball of fur staring back at you...no nap today, just sheer exhaustion now! But I finished "The Search" by Nora Roberts. Excellent book and I am headed to the library on Monday to check out more books by her.
Another fun day of arguing with Alex today. I hope she channels that arguing into a productive career as a lawyer. Then again, she is just like my sister was at that age. A smart ass know-it-all. =) Madysen actually cleaned off her desk. I am hoping to light a fire under her tomorrow to get the rest of that pit cleaned. Unlikely but wishful thinking in my little dream world that I live in!
Monday I start the Lupron injections for the endometriosis. I am NOT looking forward to it as I had one in the ER on Thursday night and the injection site is still sore. I honestly hope this works. I am exhausted going to doctor after doctor to try and figure out what the issue is. If these work, I may be a candidate for surgery to permanently laser the fibroids off. Drug induced menopause is what the dr is calling it. So, there goes any chance of having more kids if we wanted to. Not that we were going to try again anyway but it was a small consolation of having that security. Oh well. There is always the possibility of adoption. Hopefully we will beat that whack job Casey Anthony to the agency. That though my friends, is another story for another day on how I feel about her. Another blog entry I guess!
Girls start school on Monday...I am looking forward to having 6 hours a day to myself. Of course I say that now when in reality, I will miss them like hell....
I am going to lay down now...I am way too pathetic...already in my PJ's and ready for bed by 715 pm on a Saturday night...
Another fun day of arguing with Alex today. I hope she channels that arguing into a productive career as a lawyer. Then again, she is just like my sister was at that age. A smart ass know-it-all. =) Madysen actually cleaned off her desk. I am hoping to light a fire under her tomorrow to get the rest of that pit cleaned. Unlikely but wishful thinking in my little dream world that I live in!
Monday I start the Lupron injections for the endometriosis. I am NOT looking forward to it as I had one in the ER on Thursday night and the injection site is still sore. I honestly hope this works. I am exhausted going to doctor after doctor to try and figure out what the issue is. If these work, I may be a candidate for surgery to permanently laser the fibroids off. Drug induced menopause is what the dr is calling it. So, there goes any chance of having more kids if we wanted to. Not that we were going to try again anyway but it was a small consolation of having that security. Oh well. There is always the possibility of adoption. Hopefully we will beat that whack job Casey Anthony to the agency. That though my friends, is another story for another day on how I feel about her. Another blog entry I guess!
Girls start school on Monday...I am looking forward to having 6 hours a day to myself. Of course I say that now when in reality, I will miss them like hell....
I am going to lay down now...I am way too pathetic...already in my PJ's and ready for bed by 715 pm on a Saturday night...
insomniac
Just when I thought I was exhausted to beyond belief, I find the energy to be going on further. Oh well. Consider this my "Real Life Confessions of an Insomniac" I guess...maybe my book by Nora Roberts "The Search" will knock me under in a few.
Some days I wonder where I find the energy to go on like the damn energizer bunny...with 2 pre-teen (tween monsters as I so lovingly refer to them some days as) girls that keep me on my toes with non-stop activities and chatter, I am surprised I dont make like Rip Van Winkle some nights and sleep until noon the next day! Alex has competitive soccer 2 nights a week, which we are on a symbattical from until 1 August, plus she still wants to play AYSO this season. May God grant me the serenity to juggle both for her...well, serenity for all 4 of us since Saturdays are devoted solely to soccer. Screw college football for Matt and I! And did I Thank God for the DVR so we can watch our beloved Iowa Hawkeyes and Wisconsin Badgers play??? What sucks about Hawaii is that all of the games that we want to watch are on at o'dark thirty here...seriously when we have a bye week in soccer, its really one of those FML kind of moments because we both desperately want to sleep in but that damn college football draws us in and up at 0530! Cant go wrong with a cold beer at that hour though I suppose!
So here I sit in my cute little suburban Honolulu home as it draws near midnight and all i have for background noise is the gecko's chirping as they crap on my back lanai. "Hey girls! Guess what tomorrow brings?! Yep! Spraying gecko crap off the back lanai!" Sucks to be them!
Anyway, my couch is beckoning me and Tigger has her hackels up over something...probably her look alike that prowls in the backyard at night...if I am lucky, she wont meow all night and will allow me to get some sleep on the fricking couch...
Some days I wonder where I find the energy to go on like the damn energizer bunny...with 2 pre-teen (tween monsters as I so lovingly refer to them some days as) girls that keep me on my toes with non-stop activities and chatter, I am surprised I dont make like Rip Van Winkle some nights and sleep until noon the next day! Alex has competitive soccer 2 nights a week, which we are on a symbattical from until 1 August, plus she still wants to play AYSO this season. May God grant me the serenity to juggle both for her...well, serenity for all 4 of us since Saturdays are devoted solely to soccer. Screw college football for Matt and I! And did I Thank God for the DVR so we can watch our beloved Iowa Hawkeyes and Wisconsin Badgers play??? What sucks about Hawaii is that all of the games that we want to watch are on at o'dark thirty here...seriously when we have a bye week in soccer, its really one of those FML kind of moments because we both desperately want to sleep in but that damn college football draws us in and up at 0530! Cant go wrong with a cold beer at that hour though I suppose!
So here I sit in my cute little suburban Honolulu home as it draws near midnight and all i have for background noise is the gecko's chirping as they crap on my back lanai. "Hey girls! Guess what tomorrow brings?! Yep! Spraying gecko crap off the back lanai!" Sucks to be them!
Anyway, my couch is beckoning me and Tigger has her hackels up over something...probably her look alike that prowls in the backyard at night...if I am lucky, she wont meow all night and will allow me to get some sleep on the fricking couch...
Friday, July 8, 2011
raising tweens
Everyone said we were crazy when we had the girls so close together. At the time, we laughed at them. Now, I can see why they said that!!! So much drama and competition in this house at times. It makes me CRAZY!!!!! But, I love the girls and I wouldnt trade them for the world. Some days. ;)
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