perfectionist?

I was in Alex's cross hairs all day today...first it was the screwing up of the school supplies in the wrong bag, then I couldnt microwave her lunch right apparently. Finally she called me "inept" because I bought her school shirts a size bigger than normal so she'd grow into them over the course of the year. Thankfully Matt got home around 330 pm and then he was in her cross hairs the rest of the day...

Maybe I am trying too hard with the girls. Maybe I am striving for perfection that cannot be obtained. They have very few responsibilities around here: do their own laundry, unload the dishwasher and homework. Other than that, they can skate. Maybe thats the problem...Matt and I have done too much for them...I fear turning into my mother by making them do more things around here and while I am not here to be their friend, I just want them to like me at the same point in time. I want them to be the ones to tell their friends "Yeah, my mom is pretty cool...for an old lady!" I dont know anymore...

Tomorrow they start school. Finally, back to a routine that we can deal with!!!! I have a ton of errands to run tomorrow so that 6 hours that they're in school is going to fly...I have to get to the library to get some books to keep me from going insane and to keep my mind off of the Lupron therapy tomorrow afternoon as well!

Anyway, I am exhausted. I finished another afghan tonight and started another one right away...i cant seem to sit still!!

Night world...